For you , untuk kamu

Lord, allow me to make her smile, laugh, and feel happy, and feel comfortable when he's sad, and even happy. even though I know I can not always watch, always on his side even I could not make her be my, I realized that there was a difference but I'm happy if he could allow me to be able to always help her, I do not know what she was thinking about me, if it had been bothering me please pass on my apology to her, I know I'm just a young kid who has not been able to think like an adult, I know I'm just a little boy who could not keep proper adult, maybe I'm wrong, or maybe I'm stupid, really want it but I know he does not want me, but who knows what is in my mind, I was too hard for things that are not possible, the beginning I could have loved her and I can not help, I know I eventually betray me, but I I still love and fought and continue to fight until I see her again, and I can help and I hope all can come back again but I was wrong because the reason for the difference she can not go back and choose another person who actually even made ​​her cry , I know I've I could not know he was not going to respond to what I feel, what a difference a significant problem? why? why in the world is all hung up on the difference, the difference is I do not understand. many people speak all the same no different at our destination, that we worship only one but a different way, I believe the word, and make it my motivation but why should that be a reason, is there another reason? what because I'm not perfect? I realize I'm not perfect, I realized I was not who he wants but god help me, please take care of her, watch her when I can not keep it, please make it a happy, laughing, happy when I could not comfort her, please help her case when I could not keep her, please you convey my message to her I love her, I do it all because I love her, what I had to go back to disappear, what I have to go back to the dark past, full of shadows shadow? , I never blamed her for what had once been the case, I do not want to blame anything that happens, even if I feel sad I feel worse I feel I'm stupid I'm useless I do not deserve loved, but I will feel worse feeling sad feeling useless increasingly feel stupid when I could not make her happy when he's happy and sad could not make it feel helped when she needed help, and when she said she did not deserve loved, what she was not aware of my existence for this? What she did not know I love her, I do not care who he was, what he was like, he how, where he is, I just want her god wanted her to be by my side someday I know this is not the time to talk but I'm serious I'm serious god, I'm going to keep waiting for one more year even 2 years more until I was somewhere where I would be sent I'll keep waiting for her, I do not know why, many, many others but why do I only think about it, a lot of tears that have come out that may he does not even know when he wrote these words long did I cry, when I remember everything that happened. but I'm glad she can be happy,I do not care what he thinks, he thinks I'm just kidding, I'm too much, because I wrote this childish all. which obviously I just want her to know and she understands I love her, and I just wanted her, if I had the chance I would probably say once again, can I be your boyfriend? and through the whole thing seriously or not , and face all the differences together, and not a game that can easily leave and left without a reason. I know that there is a difference, a lot, I know I should not talk like that but I just want you to know. I love you.